Saturday, December 4, 2010

Future is Written, as Fate

Siapa tak sedih kalau orang yang dia sayang tinggalkan dia. Tengah happy2, berbahagia dengan insan tersayang, tiba2 dia blah camtu je. Menangislah si malang tersebut 7 hari 7 malam dek ditinggalkan sang kekasih hati yang pergi kerana wang. Atau pergi mengejar gadis yang lagi hot. Sang gadis tersebut pasti akan merasa sungguh sedih dan tidak mahu hidup lagi. Sungguh sedih. Sungguh tragik.

Akan tetapi, perpisahan itu akan lebih tragik jika sang kekasih hati meninggalkan kita kerana bertemu Tuhan. Aku tak pernah rasai perpisahan jenis ini, but I can see from others. Even they say berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul.

Tadi aku balik dari tahlil arwah abang Hisham, yang meninggal dunia Selasa lepas. Aku dengar betapa isterinya tidak dapat tidur malam mengenangkan arwah suaminya. Penderitaan ini lebih mendalam kerana kita berada di negara orang, with less people you can have to accompany you. Seriously I felt my eyes were blurred when I thought about it. But itulah, berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu yang memikul.

Then aku fikir lagi, kalau family aku yang pergi macam mana. Pasti aku tidak akan dapat menerima hakikat tersebut. I love every single brothers and sisters I have. Not to mention my dad and especially my mom. I might cry all night long, in fact, all week long maybe. Or I might just act cool and straight away buy my ticket back to Malaysia. Seriously I dont know what will I feel. So please, my family, Mama, Abah, Afif, Jiha, Nabil, Yaya, Zati, Nini, Fatin, Awir, do take care of yourself and our family. I cant bear all the excruciating misery if that were fated to happen.

Bila aku dah fikir-fikir macam ni, what if it were me who will leave them? What will they feel? What will happen to my family? I dont want any single one of them to drop even one particle of their tears for me. It'll make my soul uneasy. All this while I have been the one who take care of my family. My sisters always came to me and seek for my help or my advices. So please Allah, dont take me first, because my family needs me. I  am their pillar of support. Without me, they will crumble. I beg of you Allah the Most Loving and Most Merciful, dont let that happen to my family. Please..

Just now I chatted with my sis, Yaya. She asked me what to apply for UPU. She said that Abah and Mama are hoping that she will follows the steps her brother, Nabil, is taking, by pursuing degree in Medic, since she got 4 flat in her first semester in Matriculation. But then she said that she dont like Biology.

My dear sister,


It is all parents' dream to have their children to be a doctor. To take care of them when they are old. As a child, you have to fulfill their dream. Allah told us to, right? :)  But, if you really cant do it, talk to them. Explain to them that you are not good at it. As parents, they will understand. You know them well right? Mama and Abah will always understand us. It is just us who never understand them. Buat istikharah banyak-banyak, mintak Allah bagi petunjuk. He will show you what's best for you.

Moral hari ini, December 4th, 2010: Appreciate and cherish your love ones, no matter how they treat you.

7 comments:

Atikah Adnan said...

Wish Yaya all the best :)

Firdaus said...

Okay :)

Dr.KesHi said...

act..for me lah...better yaya choose her own choice...if not like medic.. seriously it would be more harder...
juz ask yaya..wut she really want 1st...

Firdaus said...

Peh. Speaking London maa..haha. Memang dia xnak amik medic pun. Tah apa dia apply nnt aku pn x tau. haha

yuzuki said...

may Allah always help us in anything we're doing..

Anonymous said...

Medic is freaking hard.
It's even harder when someone is forced to take it.

Anonymous said...

couldnt help but agree with anon above.